abandoned.

today my mum cooked nasi lemak, with prawn sambal and fried selar kuning. yummeh. i know. u guys must be jealous right. haha.


and then after my yummeh dinner, i went down to the shops to buy eggs for mum. at the shop, the cashier was brother chee look-alike. haha. he looks like bro chee and sounds like him too. long lost brother i guess. haha.


today my brother was exceptionally lazy to go back camp. i don't know why. he say book in at 8pm but 7.30pm then leave the house. nonsense. but he's gonna get long weekend next week. he will come back on christmas eve and will have holiday until don't know when. hmmm...


on a sidenote, now that i know everything, i feel so helpless and hopeless. i just couldn't get it, how can a person be so damn cruel, hypocrite, selfish and stupid at the same time. i wish i could kill that person. shameless creature.


and know that i get the real picture, i realised that i have been so damn stupid. so blind and so damn stupid. wait. i just said stupid right?? yaa bloody damn stupid. what a life. tsk.


they said they finally understood how i felt. but in actual fact, they have no idea how i felt, what i went through at all. they absolutely know nothing about me. nothing.


enough said.


t.t.f.n.