1st post of 2009.

and so the day is almost over. so fast. tsk.


so i went to watch fireworks despite the fact that my heart was totally not into it. waited for about an hour and a half, with nothing to do except entertaining myself with stupid things like creating an imaginary grave, disturb people and getting laughed at cos i was being restless. and the fireworks was only for 10 minutes. for all the waiting and boredness, i got rewarded with 10 minutes only. tsk. and the display really left me sad and depressed instead of entertaining me.


as i watch those things popping, all the events of 2008 played through my mind. as much as i want to forget it, i just can't. it really left a huge print in my head and heart. so yea.


and as we walked away from the place to find a less crowded place i was like, "there goes 2008.." over and over. i just couldn't stop. haiz.


and someone had to touch my heart with the gestures. oh how i long for those gestures, eventhough the person did it unknowingly and jokingly. i was shocked but pleased at the same time. the 1st real smile of 2009 i must say. haha.


oh wells. life must continue. even if it hurts.


t.t.f.n.