i hate this part right here.

i knew it i knew it i knew it. there must be a motive for that phonecall. people will never call me if there isn't something that they want from me. why am i so naive to believe that that phonecall was just to check whether i am still alive or not?? i guess that naivity will get me killed one day.


and why do i always let myself be manipulated, cheated, lied to and made use of?? now that u know something that i have been keeping with me, protecting it like it was some kind of treasure, are u happy now?? forcing and psychoing me like that, are u happy now?? why can't u spare a thought for my feelings?? u only care about your feelings. u said it was for my own good to let it all out. i say, its for other people's own good NOT to let it all out. people will get hurt if the truth comes out. to me, i don't care if I am hurt, as long as others are not hurt as well. why do u think i keep all these to myself for this long?? u think i like keeping things to myself?? can't u see things from my point of view?? can't u put yourself in my shoes?? well i guess not. our shoe sizes are not the same. that is why u are acting like that. tsk.



"she doesn't treat u like a friend." do you know that hurts?? i wasn't surprised. i knew it all along. but still, coming from your mouth, it feels like u have just stab a knife through my heart. thanks.



and now lets get ready for mass destruction. i think. i don't know what's going to happen now. all i know is i'm already feeling so very guilty.



i need chocolates. lots of it. and coca cola. lots of it too.



t.t.f.n