i think i'm gonna die due to being blamed too much....

of all people, YOU have to stab my heart with a knife...
of all people, YOU have to embaress me infront of everybody...
of all people, YOU have to make me cry...
of all people, YOU have to make fun of my weakness...
of all people, YOU have to make me the bad example when all i did wrong was being jobless...



where were YOU when i needed comfort??? where were YOU when i needed support??? where were YOU when i needed hugs and kisses??? when YOU needed help, YOU know how to suck up to me... and when YOU don't need me, YOU shower me with hurtful words... YOU only see my bad points, my weakness and all of my negative shits... my sacrifices for YOU, my good points and all my positive things are all rubbish and junks to YOU...



haiz.... this is what you call FAMILY... thanks alot father and mother... i will remember what YOU say forever...


done.


t.t.f.n.


Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson



I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far


Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of youI am afraid


I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with


Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid


I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing


Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid


Because of you
Because of you